You spend too much time in the company of washed up middle aged freelancers. Be around people of your own age - offline, not online and definitely avoid the social media, play a sport, chase girls, go to a gym, brush up your calculus, learn to code, join a proper engineering college. Don’t waste your youth.
What you’ve got right - Starting your own web design business. Very good. You are probably better at web programming than most people of your age. Develop your skills. Coding is going to be the most valuable skill anyone can have in 4 or 5 years time.